i want to waste my life away. was watching television just now. as usual.. saw the fates of old man 70 yrs old, leading a solitary life, his kin just left him there for four yrs alone after he was discharged from a hospital.

what is the pt of living? rather studying? u achieve nothing and ur kids cheat u of ur $$ and tts the end of the world, sth like that is happening in spore. i believe many worse cases can be seen elsewhere in this world.

our world is aging. can we knock some sense into these selfish pple that we need the elderlys. they are the valuables to society. i am not gg to rattle on but to write down sth i wish i could do before i am 21.

1) not go to school FOREVER.

2) dreams come true.

3) fly on a plane, its true i havent been on a plane. (hey you, dont laugh! i will hate u forever for that smirk on ur face.)

4) live in harry potter land.

5) hiking? i want it been there done that. oh hey, i wana experience all fields in obs too. never been one, all thks to a stupid ankle fracture.

6) diving? wana learn proficient swimming b4 i could do w that.

7) own a car myself. hafta sell my butt for it. ( ASSES for sale, big ass! value for money, leloong! anyone?)

8) be intellectual. (how on earth i can be intellectual w/o gg school? i know i sound ignorant. bks, magazines. do u know hw much a TIMES mag costs in retail? its 7sth. hey that is daylight robbery man! knowlegde < money?? )

9) seen everything and know everything so that i can get engaged in conversations and not feel lost. ( glutton me just wana be an expert in al fields. haiz. haiz. )

10) shag someone. (heh, maybe this is my wildest dream. someone does not pt to anyone specific k)

***** most impt pt: i wana be comfortable w myself, BE myself and proud of myself. confidence is the key to my dreams come true. :))

things i wana do before i die....

1) have sex with fukuyama masaharu (tho of top priority, this is so impossible. i believe someone i know does look abit like him. X) )

2) get pregnant or at least have a 2 yr-old kid. (kids older than that are undesirable and they get outta hand easily )

3) meet leehom, linjunjie, and ALL cute guys in person. (i know this is my dream, yes i know)

4) have a wardrobe full of clothes and the $S1000 tube, bikinis tankinis etc. plus fully stocked with sexy lingerie. (hee, dream of all woman)

5) at least 800 pairs of shoes!

6) unlimited accessories. ( ahha, greedy me!)

7) meet Howard from EFAG and French Kiss with him. ( erm, dream on X3)

8) liposuction on my waist, hips and legs. - which eventually leads to a sexaayy body.

9) leave my hair long till at least my waist. (hahahah, likely)

10) learn how to make up and with all tops brands make up i like, esp the newest products. hohoho, and at least 300 bottles of perFUMe...


do u think that is possible.. emmm. oh man.

i receive a sms, a chain sms that stirred my thoughts.

somehow, the most cruel thing on earth u could do to a friend is to walk away. it is not spiteful words, or evil conspiracies that hurt someone, but the meer fact that u walked away. to me, it is.

i have a feeling that my friends are walking away from me, one by one. i have by no means to stop them.

sometimes, u wanted to be back; yet u feel the awkwardness and detachedness to be back. so i chose and prefer not to be back, i hated awkward situations. somethings are just best kept in ur memories. i think.

i am in a desperate mood. damn, tmr i think i am gg to deliver the sim to karboon, so sorry kaes, for causing so many troubles.

yep, i received many advices to use the international passport. but its too late, i used my restricted passport and my application to solar is approved. thank God. i hope this wont cause any trouble. my sis is using her student pass also but she has alrdy changed her passport. so i dont think there is gona be any problem. worst come to worst, i am gg to get my student pass changed. heehee... hope everything will be easier then. wakakakaka.

my matriculation package is still nowhere to be seen, am i being too grumpy? heard must send in sth by 20th June and i havent seen the envelope of the package. damn.

oh, for the past two days i saw two pp i knew on tv. first one was claire on SAY CHEEZ and the next is Gerry on YUAN LAI JUI SHI NI, walalalaaaa... okay i wiould say they look great on tv and tv doesnt enlarge ppl. wakaka. see, how much i like the tv. :) oh, tdy got superstar, heck laaaaa...

typing crap kinda make me happier. cos im kinda desperate for my package, i ve been so lost touch w everything on the whole wide world.

talking about efficiency and convenience, i dont think electronic online forms guaranttee that. The fact that i have to apply for SOLAR system and my matriculation number online is driving me crazy. Cos before i can get my matric number, i have to answer numerous questions that are not on hand, and i dont think saving the webpage wil save my answers tho. which is sth i hate to do it. thot i am quits w forms after the university application. where on earth i know my dad's and mum's IC number when they are nt at hm. Hw do I know if i fill in my restricted passport number or international passport number when one expires in nov 2006 and the other end of this yr? and that msia no longer accepts restricted passport from dont know when. being away from msia for so long, i nv know all the exact dates of all these, i mean i am just to lazy to keep up w the info and none will tell me when does my restricted passport cease its functionality.

this is so irritating.

furthurmore, i wonder if my webcam is working or not, tried installing it and resulted me in some kind of shit. DAMN, im such a idiot.

damn, i am stop gg to fill in my forms now, but when i can exactly fill it in? at night is so distracting, im either in front of the tv or online talking to many people which draws my attention away from all the stuffs.

yet i havent receive my matriculation package, NTU i want my matric package!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

haiz.

yest was a shopping day i spent more than 200+++ on shopping, spent 7.60 alone on a cup of frozen YAMI yogurt, it is damn nice okay, hope the sale doesnt end soon, i see a couple of great deals down the road. hehe, esp at jusco.. i need more bottoms!!! so bottoms up people. !

plus, i think i m in desperate need for some form of exercise.

AN EYE FOR A GUY 2

wakaka, check it our ya, i love denise, she is cute, i love howard, he rawks. but he is just so dreamy, could nv have someone like him to be my bf lahh. HE is ONE IN A MILLION~~~~~~~~~~

haiz. plenty to blog abt, i had a great day, fun time. had a bad wk tho. just to keep it short my life is stil mundane. but i love da tv. my greatese companion at all times..........

hmmmm, sick still sick v sick

well, i made a correct choice to come online now.
less pp to talk to so i can open my barrage of mails and read them carefully plus replying to them. thanks to my jumuis in Oldham, and gals from NYGBS, hahahaha, rly sweet to have a chance to have so many mails. so happy.
other than that, pp have been so used to keep in touch via MSN, well, its hard using it cos sometimes we fight to say stuffs and normally what we say online are just erm, something that we wana say at-the-time. aiya, cant convey my feelings gd enuf. t

the dragon boat festival is coming and i have been stuffed w rice dumplings and etc. plus indulging from chocholate from Hyatt and M&Ms and Mangoes. which do not help my sickness at all xcept to aggravate it. haiz its bad to have ur head banging against ur skin the whole day.

im struggling to type and think coherently but well.. im so energy-less. due to the freaking sickness. i passed it on to my sis and mom. ops. sorry..... and im glad that darling yun is back, miss her so much.........

life being unemployeed is great, been employed by my mom full time. hanging curtains and doing some hse work. im such a filial daughter... but ouch, muscle ache, so long nv exercise liao............ miss my sis.. she is away at st john camp. i helped her paint her flag okay! so nice! and sew the stupid flag together and fit it onto the stick. im sucha genius okay.. simply brilliant. :) sew till my hands wobbly liao la

enuf for crapping. byebye

sian ah, i am so sian. i want to go shopping yet i hate shopping so much. oxymoronic.

hate rich filthy bastards who flaut their riches, well, they got what they have by sucking their multimillionaire parents' butt. maybe they dont need to do that too, the amt they spent is just too little to be felt by theit parents.

damn. u saw what i mean right? i AM low on cash. wadeva.

i bet im PMS-ing in ultra low MOOD. hate it, y women suffer? dont get it. well, i have this angst in my heart that i couldnt get rid off. damn, cos i couldnt get to watch madagascar at 1010pm. damn, cos the freaking queue was too long n i get there at a freaking 1004. u think i could get tix? oh so no way. damn.

i hate it la, im facing alot of pressure. one day i might even die of HBP, i.e.high bld pressure w/o me knowing it. damn, ok words cant express what i feel but i just wana do this WHAT DA FUCK!

y am i always such a loser.

nah, which led me to this anti-social mood. i oh so hate to get dressed n go out. DAMNED. i shouldnt have quit. maybe gg out means $$.

LOSER

finally this is my choice - 3/6/2005

i made the choice of my life. i decided what i am gg to be for the rest of my life.

which is that i am not gg to be an architect but an accountant, wish me luck.
n please, if u have any accounts, look for me in the future. i will gladly help w some fees. hehe, there is no free lunch in this world. aint it?

so i am gg to enjoy a scholarship, well under the tuition grant, its so unfair tt i have to take up the tuition grant for only 3 yrs n work under a spore registered company for 3 yrs. other pp took a 4 yr tuition grant, is there a discount anywhere?!

but thanks for all who gave me advice!! i love u guys yah!

do u 0903 peeps rmb clement ong? haha, our BIO teacher, somehow i agree w his theory about when u got tensed n after that relaxed, u get easily sick, haha, no longer than 2 days i quitted from my job, things have been happening.

1) missus seetshuxin here left her phone in office. isnt that brilliant, so she have to wake up early next morn to go back n get it n thus pangsehing one of her friends. which i am real sorry ziyih!

2) i am sick. haha, i have sore throat and fever and headache. all thanks to all the dapaoz and lunches outside. i have been feasting on chicken rice and malay cuisine, its hard not to fall sick. not to mention fried stuffs, titbits and no water. to people who know me esp hueychyi my ex-rmmate, i dont drink water unless i feel like im dying. which resulted in my over-heated body.

3) my mom n dad n sis stil thinks archi is better. but i dont knoe, i feel like taking accountancy. i wana go ntu. i dont know why.

4) i think i can earn money myself and learn to be more independant there, xcept that chyi is gg to be at nus, well bt other pp, like most of my oldham friends xcept ynay is gg to ntu. its not abt friends but myself la k... i dont want anyone to be responsible for my decision.

i think that is all, forgive me for all the crapping. :)

heyhey people, streamyx rules~~~~~

oh man, i am dancing in the streamyx rain.. i hereby announced i have got broadband! tho there is some prob gg to get it. my phone is just too far away from the computer....

NUS and NTU sent me emails reminding me the deadline of acceptance. my mom thought i shld think thru it again. oh man, i am so bored.. its so fast i have no where to go.. shld stop here. bebye