its a one week recess, however i am feeling d stress forever than not. i have been bloggin in my MSN spaces for long as its so much easier. i have been writing crap there. by i feel more crappy down here. squashed by so many things. saddened by so many craps. haiz, how i wish im back in spore in my friends' comfort. either its a facade or not, i feel better. how i wish... mmmm, its not tt life back in msia is bad, its just tt there are one or two elements outta the way n is making me miserable. but well, i shld study n be more productive shldnt i? haiz. i think after today i am gg to be intimidated by mooncakes. argh~
ppl im so broke
pls pay me back ah, all the bdae celebrations. hehe yupp
tts all folks..
i guess it wasnt a big deal after all.
chocs seemingly cheered up my day! thanks ms Faith for the chocs for AB114 n coffee! i hafta clean my rm soon.. its getting dirty.. gotta go down help paint banner.
i spent too much. shall stop.
i have got so many things to do but so little time
thanks to those friends who cared. i forgot i could count on u. but rly thanks to the talks on MSN i am cheered. at least i know i have made valuable friends who care when im in need. thank you!!!!!! muack. haha
it rly wasnt a big deal, move on!
i duno y i am bloggin these despite tt im so not-feeling-well.
i need to talk to someone. however noone seems to suit this particular description of listener well. emm.. its troubling.. its mind-hogging..
i hadnt sleep for one whole day. feeling ultra depressed. y am i in e same situation again. haiz, getting away from situation A thinking of starting afresh n i end up in situation B which is similar to situation A. wad the hell~ y is God playing such a game on me. so fun. is it tt i am PMS-ing again. shits. great i feel so unappreciated by someone but somehow or rather i feel cheered when someone else actually expressed their appreciation of you out. am i just taking the other one as a substitute, or am i just also plainly impressed by him? haiz. y do i end up w conflicting emotions, conflicting feelings towards one. i shld think i have split personality haiz~
maybe i shld get away from all these crap and get hold of myself. let someone else's be in my life rather than being holed up w e old same grp of ppl. i swayed. i am not someone who hold true to her beliefs, pls look down upon me yah. i must admit that certain someones had said sth tt has made an impact in my thinking or rather mindset. such a strong word, my mind is set, however it is fragile in anchoring its situation. i am so affected by rumours. deeply affected. i shld think tt i am rly a normal n mundane person. i rly have low self confidence. cos i look on the floor when i walk. i avoid ppl's gazes cos i feel uncomfortable. yeah, i love my legs. i duno y.
maybe i shld remain who am i and continue to lead a painful life that i have led for the past 2 years. i thot i would be getting away from this whole shit but i ended up in another bigger pool of it. haiz. i hope i am mature enuf this time round to settle everything in a good-natured way. i hope my inner sinful feelings dont overcome the angel in me and lead me to wrongdoings. i may sound serious but i awfully regretted after i did somethings which cant be mended. right now i need God. humans are so cheap! they only finds God when they need a comfort zone, and now i am especially fragile. depending on any other souls are so untrustworthy. it is the circumstances tt made me so. i am not sorry for who i am today. but regretful. maybe the plain decision of coming to spore is wrong. i dont know, if not y shld i go thru such things?
my heart is tearing. its painful. oh God help me out of this situation. i miss whoever who was always there for me. i know i am not always there for u guys. but u guys were there, this time round i choose not to seek consolances in ur embraces, its time for me to grow up n face it myself, or rather w God. its a test of my faith in Him. maybe i shld go back to church soon. i miss the feeling of being safe n sound in His kingdom. nothing will harm me in tt way.
shopping..shopping..
someone pls stop me!! i am spending wayyyyy too much. ok, enuf i shall stop online shopping again. Rach is a bad influence, she ignited my online shopping passion. hahaha. ops. paiseh
anw, alot of things to do ahhhhh
i was pms-ing yesterday so sorry ah friends!!! paiseh. but i cant help it, hope u guys understand
i stil pms, but happy cos i buy things today!!!
okay stop here...
missing everyone!!!!!!e comex fair is crazy, dun go if u dun intend to buy stuffs k. cos it was flooded, cant even get in when i tried today. haiz. haha, dun go dun go, worse than NDP k. so many pple!!!!!!
wad shuxin deserves is a tight slap, turn her around, punches, turn her upside down, few blows, and some serious kicks. so that her confidence can finally get into her n stop thinking lowly of herself. her ego vanished after As. shits. someone! knock some sense into her!!!!!! she is behaving weirdly, nv seen her like this before. hmmm. what happened.
give her some puunches, kicks, blows, knocks and bruise her la.
