SAD.. i duno why but i am just sad. i dun understand it at all

okay i got an offer for accountancy at SMU also. but i dunno, i wished they would say sth like 'ahha! u have got offer for a double degree too!' u get wad i mean?! haiz.. sigh.. but last para it says, "as an elite student of SMU, u have an option to take a double degree or another major from other schools....." it sounded general n i seriously wouldnt wana think wad it meant, tt means that i may not be gg SMU at all, cos i cant get any scholarships there and i have no accomodation.....

i am really luan luan, i feel just like quitting, okayy, i feel just like quitting my life not just my job. i am overwhelmed by many things, i am just to ambitious that i wana achieve more thann i can. Like i wana be e nice sweet lil' girl i everyone's eyes as well as i wan to be that evil devil also...

shit man, i miss dwelling in church, i think all this emptiness comes from it. i admit it. i have BACKSLIDED> so lazy that i never even read e bible already. but i have to say that i still pray and still believe in Him. but sth just happened recently strengthened my faith for Him, just hope that i will beat my own laziness and yahh, rejoice in Him. sometimes i just cant help it la... hehehe..

okayyy.. i am back from dinner feeling abit better. no inspiration to write. but DAMN, Rooney is voted by kids in england aged 9-13 i think to be their ideal next in line Prime Ministry if sth goes wrong w Blair. hahahahaha.. (((: so cute la he, a bit fat. but well, who says a soccer player dun haf brains??